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& so it ends.

but ah..

i think we're gonna be okay.

-grins-

this isn't to make you mad or something. so please don't get mad at me cause i didn't say anything bad.

but i just wanted to let you know that people are trying to help you. and that even though it seems like they aren't, they are.."
-Kelly Jean Hitt

im sorry to everyone. if you've tried to help me ..and you think it was all for nothing ..think again. you all have helped me more than you can possibly imagine ..even if you think you havent done anything.

yeah, im going through a hard time. and yeah, its not gonna get better overnight ..but just bear with me here. all i need are people to be here for me. none of that "im always gonna be here for you" shit ..i mean really be here for me.

life isnt easy ..and most of you should know that by now.

oh and bekah-
i know what you're going through, and im here for you. i wouldnt be saying it if it wasnt sincere. i love you. <33

edit :;;;;;;//////

took this from Irene. hope she doesnt care. love to you girl

10 Favorites...
Favorite Color: Purple.
Favorite Food: Banana Pudding
Favorite Band: Yellowcard & Green Day.
Favorite Movie: Too Many
Favorite Sport: Football.
Favorite Season: Autumn.
Favorite Day Of the Week: Friday or Saturday.
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: Mint Chocolate Chip.
Favorite Car: Escalade.
Favorite Animal: Horse.

9 Currents...
Current Mood: Nervous/Bored/Apprehensive.
Current Taste: Watermelon Blow Pop.
Current Clothes: Soffe shorts, and a Hollister sweatshirt.
Current Computer: Envision.
Current Finger/Toenail Color: Black/Pink.
Current Time: 1:22pm.
Current Surroundings: Comp, magazines, cell phone, water bottle, cds.
Current Annoyance(s): Nothing really.

8 Firsts...
First Best Friend: Brittany.
First Pet: Coco.
First Screen Name: katiebird4239.
First Piercing: Kindergarten
First Crush: Kyle Lutz in Kindergarten?
First Music: Kenny Loggins.
First time saying the "F" word: 5th grade?

7 Lasts...
Last Cigarette: N/A.
Last Drink: September 29
Last Car ride: Coming back from Hollywood Video.
Last Text Message: Yesterday
Last Movie Seen: Harry Potter 4, Fried Green Tomatoes, Harold & Kumar go to White castle.
Last Phone call: Morgan.
Last CD Played: Christmas songs.

6 Have You Ever....
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: yes.
Have You Ever Broken the Law: not that I know of.
Have You Ever Been Arrested: no.
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: yes.
Have You Ever Been on TV: yes.
Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: tehe.

5 Things....
You Did Last Night:
1. Showered.
2. Got online.
3. Watched movies.
4. Talked to Conor.
5. Went to the Mall with Bethany.

4 Places You've Been Last...
1. Kohls.
2. Talegators.
3. Kobe's house.
4. My house.

3 People You Can Tell Anything...
1. Morgan.
2. Kelly.
3. Leah - - my cousin.

2 Choices...
1. chocolate or vanilla: vanilla.
2. Hot or Cold: hot.

1. Person You'd Do Anything For: hm ..I'm not gonna say any names. You know who you are.

nothing else to say you to ..nothing more. im done.

edit: ;;;; /////

if i was being "happy" then i'd be being fake. & i dont know anyone who likes fake people.

okay? okay.

oh, and one more thing.

for those of you who might think that im doing this for attention, or any reason like that, heres a reality check:

im not.

you think i asked to be like this? you think i enjoy this? i dont. ive tried to be happy, i really have.

so until you've been in my exact position, dont tell me to "be happy."
its not as easy as you think.

the more i think about it, the more i miss it.

the more i think about it, the more i realize how important everyone was to me.

the more i think about it, the more depressed i get.

the more i think about it, the more i want to stop hurting so much.

the more i think about it, the more i miss everything, and everyone.

the more i think about it ..

the more i wish that everything could have just stayed the same.

i guess this is goodbye.

"your memories keep me hanging on."

for those of you who wanted to know, yes, i did write that. so please dont take it and call it your own.

edit :; ///////
im a daughter hiding my depression. im a sister making a good impression. im the girl sitting next to you. im the one asking you to care. im your best friend hoping you'll be there.